Peace of mind

I need peace of mind.  I am what you American call a worry wart. 
If there is something to worry about, I will worry about it for sure. 
I hate it, but I cannot help it.  I worry but at least I am not a pessimist. 
So today I did my 3 miles run.  I am in the taper week.  That is my first real taper.  I follow the plan because well,  I always follow the rules.  It says 3 miles, I do 3 miles.  Tomorrow 2 miles and then that's it I am done.  That makes me happy and very stressed out at the same time.  When I was in school I would study until the last minute, even if I knew everything I would still study, you can never be too prepared.  I see the half marathon as a test and the training plan was the studying part.

Well now I worry.  Will my legs forget they ran 1o miles the other day? How about my lungs?
Then today during my run, as I was stopped at a stop light,  I realized that during all my runs outside those stop lights are there and I do stop when it's red and I wait for the little white guy.  That means I rest a little.  During the half marathon there will be no stop light to "force" me to rest and bring my heart rate down a little.  Is that going to mess things up? 
I told you I worry. 
It is exhausting. 

Then later I go pick Will up at school and his teacher tells me 6 kids were out sick today. 
A stomach bug.   That is not good.  I don't need people in my family to get a stomach bug this week (or any week ).  Now I worry Will is going to get it and pass it on to me.  I have already given to the FLU charity this year that is enough.  Can I tell you I made my boys wash their hands about 43 times since 3?  Now I think I should not go volunteer in the class full of enemy germs on Friday and play it safe. 
Am I crazy? Yeah a  little bit but hey I am nice, I am Canadian remember?!! :)

I am also worried that my current diet will not be enough for the race.  I eat a salad every day for dinner.  That is not a lot of calories.  Maybe I should try some plain pasta..I should be able to digest that and get some carbs in.  

Ah that last week should not be called taper it should be call going insane week.  This is how I am after a day of 3 miles...tomorrow is only 2...that is less then 20 minutes!

I need to find a yoga class or something...don't say a therapist like my dad suggested.  That put him on the banned list for half marathon pictures!   If only I could have one glass of wine..that would help!!!

American Idol tonight....are you watching?